It’s been a few weeks since I first met you and your mother while a bunch of us were out to dinner and I first heard about what your going through. I can remember that night as if it were yesterday which is pretty amazing because by the time I met you and your Mom I had thrown down a bunch of shots trying to keep Knobs in some kind of control. I remember hearing how excited you were about Andre and getting to take a look in it a few times while we all sat around, I also remember trying to tell you how much I thought you would like our Pink H2 and you kept telling me, “No I love Andre”. I was shocked to see you weren’t more into the Pink one being such a cute little girl I thought it would be the one of your choice but your charisma and your strong personality gives you the strength to know exactly what you want.
The next day I remember waking up and thinking just how cute and how special of a little girl you really are, your smile lights up a room and your personality is beyond sweet. I also remember feeling the pit in my stomach knowing that you were going to be going in for some tests and I remember our discussion about that perfectly, you spoke like such a little grown up. Amazing. I also remember asking you to be strong and stay positive and made you promise to me that you would do that for me, be strong and stay positive. Your Mom had called a few days after your test and left a message at my office explaining how you were terrified of the big needle they had to give you and you didn’t want to do it. To be honest with you I can’t blame you Heidi I wouldn’t have wanted to do it either, in the message your Mom said she reminded you of your promise to me and by having that discussion your Mom felt that it really gave you the extra strength and courage to go through with your tests. I was so proud of you when I heard how much of a big girl that you were that I called you and left you a message, I was also very sadened to hear that you have to go in for more tests as well as what those tests might discover. It makes me more than sick to my stomach and more sad than you, your mom or most of my readers could begin to imagine. I hate it.
Some time has gone on now and I recently tried calling you back to see how you were doing and to check in with your Mom, the phone line was disconnected. I still think about your little smile everyday and wonder how your feeling and I wonder if your still being brave through this entire situation. I hope that sometime in the near future I will either run into you again or maybe we will hear from your mom again and we will get an update that tells us your the happy healthy little girl that we prayed you would be. Stay strong Heidi and I hope to see you take a ride in Andre very soon.
