Kill me if you must but it’s been a few weeks since I have talked about dipping or wanting to dipp or the fact that I actually quit dipping out of no where. Now is the moment where you have to deal with the fact that I am going to mention it or talk about it and I am going to pat myself on the back.
Every once and a while I still crave a good dip, I need that Skoal shit in my lip. (No I am not going to rhyme). Thus far just as I thought I would ignore every craving for the lip lovin I have had, and well I have ignored it which means I still win. Just as I said I wouldn’t dip anymore and I am thankful that I have not, I men it was something that controlled my life and any of you that have smoked or do currently smoke you know exactly what I mean. It controlled everything I did, every ride I took in a car, every place I wanted to sit and eat and every place I ever wanted to gamble.
When I get hammered….. And well Ive had a few Long Island Ice Tea’s already today I want a dip, I want to put that nasty ass shit into my mouth and spit, not sure why it is pretty fucking stupid if you think about it. I have that thought about any and every addiction, I think it’s mind over matter and you can thank my old school true friend “The Ant”, “Ant”, Antnee” or on The Tan Forum the Ant16 for the fact that I am a mind over matter kind of guy. If I have a dip it’s because I gave into my mind and I let “IT” win, I have let my mind win so many times before and this time it won’t win I will win.
It looks like overall I just needed this space or this time to remind myself that I use to dip and if I decide to dip again it’s because I am a willing to lose, willing to give in and willing to admit I fucking suck. Thats not an option for me I have enough people that think I suck and love to sit around waiting for me to fail, this time it will be a blog post and I won’t fail. I will give props to those who have quit, it’s been pretty easy for me so far but it doesn’t mean it hasn’t taken some focus and commitment either. Currently I win, hopefully I will still be winning the next time I go to write about this.
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Grab your “glasses” in the silver case and in a couple minutes, that craving will be gone!
I remember you and I talking about this back in July – Don’t do it bro!
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