Insomniac

Here I site at 8am wide awake with a small cloud in my brain, the could is not there because of cheeba the cloud is there because I only went to bed around three hours ago. I think it was somewhere around 4:30am when I decided to try and trick myself into thinking that I was tired, I needed some kind of sleep or I would spend my Sunday letting all the things I usually refrain from bitching about bother me until I bitch about it.

I know that having a lack of sleep for one day hardly makes you an Insomniac, people suffering from Insomnia have it much worse than that. I do however think I am somewhat of a part time Insomniac that goes through stages of not being able to sleep when I am tired, or just not feeling tired at all like last night when I felt like even trying to go to sleep was a waste of time.

Even after finally diving into bed last night and falling asleep it didn’t last very long as I tossed and turned and wondered why the hell I was even laying in bed. Over the last three weeks this seems to be a pretty consistent pattern for me, either stay up until I feel obligated to go to bed so that I can be somewhat useful to the people around me the following day, or toss and turn through out the night and claim that it was a great night sleep.

I can pretend as much as I want, but the fact is the sleep is hardly a solid night sleep and it’s usually only for about three-four hours in length. This is with the exception of Thursday night when I went to bed around around 3:30am and managed to “sleep in” until 10am, it wasn’t straight through but it certainly was mind relaxing sleep.

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I’m not really sure what exactly is causing the new found burst of energy or what caused me to slip into this pattern that I slip into from time to time, I wouldn’t mind if it would get lost for a while now so I can get back to being tired and being able to have a great night sleep. I am not sure why I lead myself to believe that I can sleep late the following day, even though I am fortunate to be able to do something like that it would only be nice if my brain would let me take advantage of it.

I also try to convince myself that at some stage of the following day (like today), that I will take a long nap or go and lay on the bed to catch up on some of my lost sleep. The reality is that once I am up, unless I am suffering from a brutal hangover… I am up and a nap or laying on the bed doesn’t even become something I would even seriously consider. The naps and set aside bed time always sounds pretty, but it’s not realistic for me and my personality type, instead I will spend the day with the family in the pool, surfing the web, watching the NASCAR race, than on the the NY Mets vs the NY Skankees and some Lasagna for dinner.

I hope you have a great Sunday, do you have any big plans? Share them.

Do any of you that read my blog suffer from Insomnia? Leave a comment and share your stories about the torubles you have trying to sleep.

Tagged as: health, insomnia, insomniac, Sleep apnea, sleep disorder